i realized i do most of my deep thinking in the shower. back then when i worked, i would recite the lines that i would pitch to the client the next morning over and over. other times, it would be just random things. time goes fast in the shower. i would stay so long in there, the hot water would completely run out. but i wouldnt be cold cuz my body would slowly adapt to the change in temperature. record time in the shower: over 2 hours.

tonight i went to the gym at 3AM. im back in the groove and it means business. if i miss a day at the gym, my body would itch. it just doesnt feel right. unbalanced. i mean i could workout tomorrow, but i have plans. so im happy that i got this weeks gym cycle over. i can party and rest to grow. but partying doesnt mean i can do whatever the hell i want. i resist from taking bad things until new years eve and i keep dancing to a minimum. i cant waste the precious calories.

this afternoon, i talked to 2 of my friends who were having relationship problems. 1 is a girl and 1 is a guy (either not related). both are in different situations but are in a similar bond to their loved one. i realized that their relationships are shaky because they still have a "high school dating" mentality. i mean yes its true they are young in their early 20's but a relationship is not something to mess around with. you cant take relationships to either extremes. in their case, you cant have a wandering eye nor could you have a too tight of a commitment. gotta find that neutral spot while maintaining a 100% trust.

another spontaneous day. randy invited me to the keith urban concert at last notice. i didnt even know he was in town. this guy from australia recently won the male vocalist of the year just a couple weeks ago. we arrive at the pond at 8pm with seats on the floor! deana carter opens, but we miss most of her sons. keith came on around 845 and that guy has crazy guitar skills. but no where close to brad paisley. ill give him credit though for knowing how to play the drums, piano, and guitar. he played rock tunes such as aerosmith - what it takes, and, U2 - beautiful day. going to these country concerts again reminds me how talented each and every member of the group has to be in order for the right music to come out. unlike trance and hip hop, music like that is usually played on a CD or made on a computer. weaksauce.

setlist:
grace of god
days go by
better life
youll think of me
where the blacktop ends
making memories
who'd wanna be me
jolene
somebody like you

and couple others i didnt recognize

another night of clubbing on saturday. once i heard the words "above and beyond" i just had to go see them. then i heard they were going to play from 4-7am AFTER ferry corsten. that made me kinda sad. i dont like to stay that late at a club because it already fucks up my irregular sleeping patterns. but hell, its only once in a blue moon. so i sorta killed time before heading to avalon. sat around julia's apt and headed over to spundae. then tigo warns us how even will call would close at a certain time. fuck i thought. randy and i went over to avalon at 12 the latest, but shit, we have 7 hours to go. since i dont wanna kill calories, i stuffed down 2 heavy bisuits right before entering. as ferry went on at midnight, i prevented myself from dancing. dancing is a major weight loser for me. so i sat on the 2nd level until 4am. thats when i went downstairs upfront to watch the trio spin. still, i had to limit my dancing. dont wanna turn into a toothpick. jono gave me a CD and that was spontaneous. we walked out the club around 7am and it was bright outside. i think its my first time in hollywood at daylight.